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Tuesday, June 26th, 2007
6.26.07 @ 5:20 pm
BLOG. BLOG. BLOG.

www.thelifeofSS.blogspot.com

go look. go read.


Current Mood: blah
+0
Friday, June 22nd, 2007
6.22.07 @ 7:25 pm
Freshman Seminar - 100 A+
English - 99 A
Math - 88 B+
Spanish - 90 A-
P.E. - 96 A-
Biology - 95 A

I did really good. I'm proud of myself for:

1) Getting good grades
2) Finding like, 8 Twilight icons (GO LOOK RIGHT NOW!)
3) Going to go babysit durring summer


=]

Soffee says:

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+6
Friday, June 1st, 2007
6.1.07 @ 10:04 pm
you know what i realized

i really really hate livejournal.
Like, really REALLY hate it.
I don't know why.
I'm pretty sure that i'm going to stop making posts.
Maybe.
I dont know.
Ugh.
Weekend.
Friends.
Projects.
Writing.
Goodbye.

Current Mood: CRAZY
+4
Wednesday, May 30th, 2007
5.30.07 @ 5:38 pm
EVERYTHING YOU SAY TO ME
TAKES ME ONE STEP CLOSER TO THE EDGE
AND IM ABOUT TO BREAK

I NEED A LITTLE ROOM TO BREATH
CAUSE IM ONE STEP CLOSER TO THE EDGE


AND IM ABOUT TO BREAK.
+4
Thursday, May 24th, 2007
5.24.07 @ 8:43 pm
horrible week
horrible day
horrible night

everything is broken
in one way or another
and I really dont know if I can take
one more day.

Current Mood: depressed
+0
Sunday, May 20th, 2007
5.20.07 @ 9:43 pm
today was really really fun.

I cant wait till earth day.
<3

Current Mood: content
+0
Monday, May 14th, 2007
5.14.07 @ 9:12 pm
Hello.
My name is Sam.
I realized I really like my name.
Sam.
It just slides off the tongue.
Kind of a girly tone.
but also masculine.
Sam.
Its nice.

I realized that I'm different.
I realized what high school did to me this year.
And what it has done for me.
I changed this year.
Maybe for the best, maybe not.
But oh boy,
did I change.
I've done things that I regret.
And you know how people say
"Never have regrets, because you learn from your mistakes."
Well, I don't agree with that.
I do have regrets.
One regret for sure.
I was so stupid. So so stupid.
And because of a few choices, it actually did change me.
Changed my life.
My entire life.
I regret it.

I don't know if any of you guys were in my state of mind
way back when...
but I was thinking about it today
after testing.
I was thinking about that feeling
that ate me alive.
That extreme depression
that literally took over my entire life.
I couldn't do anything.
I was like a lifeless blob.
I was.
All my grades dropped
I couldn't climb,
anything.
And just thinking about that feeling
that feeling that was the only part of my life
made me so sick
like I wanted to vomit.
I scared me so bad
because when I was like that
that depressed
nothing could stop me
not even myself.
I shivered when I remembered today.
And i felt like I had to start gasping for air.
That feeling
took me over
and if it wasn't for the people that cared
I don't know where I would be right now.
Maybe back in therapy.
Maybe home schooled.
Maybe dead.
And although this may seem like an entry where I'm saying
"bla bla I hate the world"
It's not.
Because now I'm happy.
Today I realized
I am truely happy.
I was giddy today, which was something
that I haven't been in a very long time.
I've changed.
And I realized I don't have to be scared
of being pulled back down into that dark place
ever again
because the people that I love
and the people that love me
wont let that happen.
+8
Saturday, May 12th, 2007
5.12.07 @ 2:32 am
You know what really annoys me?
PEOPLE.
THEY CAN BE SO FUCKING ANNOYING SOMETIMES.
Like, ok.
Everyone needs attention. Everyone has phases where they need more attention from people and stuff, but sometimes enough is enough. I had that too, and I'm totally going to admit that I was a total emo-bitch during that period. But after a while, you need to pull your lazy ass out of that mood, and GET OVER YOURSELF. After a long time, your friends try to make you feel better but theres nothing more that they can do. You need to be self sufficient. NOT hate yourself, NOT hate life, NOT hate the world.

I just had to get that off of my mind, because right now i know soooooo many people that are too involved in their own little tiny life that they cannot notice anything else. (Again, admitting I used to be like this too, but the point is that i stopped.)

Current Mood: accomplished
+5
Monday, April 23rd, 2007
4.23.07 @ 8:05 pm
Pardon me.... but....



Current Mood: HAHAHAHAHAHAHA
+2
Tuesday, April 17th, 2007
4.17.07 @ 8:06 pm
worst week ever
and its only tuesday

woo!


Current Mood: aggravated
+3
Thursday, April 12th, 2007
4.12.07 @ 10:06 pm
lalallalal
jennys birthday is soon
the killers concert was SO AMAZING
they were amazing
they played my song too
i was actually like
ready to cry it was so amazing
but not really
so intead i just screamed
really really really loud
and the funny thing is that
it blended in with the hundreds of other screams
so that i couldnt even hear my own

well
g2g
watching marie antoniete now
or however you spell it
bye now

Current Mood: full
+1
Sunday, April 8th, 2007
4.8.07 @ 1:53 am
CT4L

my parents think im asleep... haha dont you just love that.

KILLERS CONCERT
TOMORROW
STAPELS CENTER
ON THE FLOOR
WITH LIZ

"It's gonna be FUCKIN awesome."

Oh yes.
It will be.
and so much more.


Current Mood: excited
+2
Tuesday, April 3rd, 2007
4.3.07 @ 10:42 pm
mmmm mmm MMMM
SAM IS CLEANIN UP

MONDAY = DISNEYLAND
TUESDAY = KNOTT'S BERRY FARM
WEDNESDAY = SEDUCTION (and jenny =D)
THURSDAY = MONEY AND CLIMBING (best combo ever!)
FRIDAY = PARTY

how is THAT for a first week of spring break?? And how's this to start off the second week...

MONDAY = KILLERS CONCERT AT THE STAPLES CENTER WITH LIZ

=D


Current Mood: PUMPED UP
+2
Monday, February 26th, 2007
2.26.07 @ 8:37 pm
things are weird right now.
I just feel bad about myself.
You know those days where you just feel like shit? Like everyone is watching you, judging your every move? Everyone has them... Well, I’ve been having an increasing number of days like those lately.
And they seem to be coming by the several.

journal one... done...
journal two... cant trust you...


Current Mood: confused
+0
Saturday, February 17th, 2007
2.17.07 @ 12:36 am
so true, because
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(dont worry... its not you)
:D


Current Mood: tired
+1
Friday, February 9th, 2007
2.9.07 @ 8:59 pm
like natasha said... timewaster
Time you started: 9:00pm

<--About You-->
Name: sam
Birthday: may 10
Age: 14
Weight: way too much
Height: 5'2.5''
Eye Color: ugly brown
Hair Color: not sure... somewhere in between brown and blonde
Race: alien
Marital Status: single
State of Residence: SO CAL
School: saMO
Occupation: babysitter
Religion: buddhist
Siblings: matt
Ever been kissed: yea
Ever cheated or been cheated on: nope
Ever faked sick: DUH
Kept a secret from everyone: hahah duhh
Cried during a movie: the notebook
Who do you go to for advice: advice? jenny

<--In the Last Two Weeks Have You-->
Cried: try year
Been mean: yepp
Been sarcastic: nooooooooooo
Been angry: cant remember
Talked to someone you have a crush on: ?
Kissed someone: yea
Hugged someone: duh
Went to the beach at night: nope

<--Favorites-->
Color: black and yellow
TV show: House MD, degrassi, BTB, CSI
Drink: arizona
Book: MR, Ellen hopkins stuff, gemma, too many
Movie: not sure..... the illusionist?
Food: again, how can i pick ONE
Time of Day: 11:11
Time of Year: whenever it rains
Restaurant: Violet
Actor: JOHNNY DEPP

<--Favorites in Music-->
Band: led zepp
Song when You're Happy: the sounds
Song when You're Sad: everything else
Song when Your Angry: jimmy eat world
Song when You're Heart is Breaking: The Wings
Song when You're Feeling Mellow: State radio, zero seven, tom petty
Song to Dance to: SHAKE
Romantic Song: ha... ha?
Love Song: one shot two shot
Song Lyrics: eminem
Song to Put on Repeat: camilo
Music Video: dani california

<--Your Friends-->
Best Friend: jenny n liz n NATALIE FUCKING MARIE COSOLA X-MEN MUTANT MAX FANG IGGY GAZZY NUDGE ANGEL FLAPPY BIRD LOVER
Smartest Friend: wheere alll dhumb az rokes shorrry
Friend you have the most fun with: all of them <3
Happiest: liz <3333
Be the first to get married: katy
Funniest: theyre alll SO FUCKING HILLARIOUS
Dependable: again, i wouldnt have a friend that wasnt dependable
Most like you: they all secretly hate me

<--Movies - Like/Dislike-->
Girl Interrupted: huh?
The Dark Crystal: HUH
?
<--Scary/Horror Movie - Like/Dislike->
The Ring: AHH AHH SCARY SCARY GO AWAY NO NO NO
Stephen King's It: o_o
The Blair Witch Project: OOOH that was a good one
Halloween: havent seen it yet
Friday the 13th: havent seen it yes
Children of the Corn: HHAHAHHAHHA THIS MOVIE WAS A JOKE
The Silence of the Lambs: O_O CANABALISM = BAAD
Jaws: ok. my mom thought up the SUPER SMART IDEA to show this movie to me when i was SEVEN YEARS OLD. I HAD NIGHTMARES FOR TWO MONTHS.
Poltergeist: huh?
The Birds: freakkkky but well done
Signs: omfgggg i was flipping out the entire time i watched it.
The Sixth Sense: scary rfwekrsarjakbntjkwebghjerbghj
Thirteen Ghosts: never saw it

<--Do You-->
Smoke Cigarettes: not regularly
Smoke anything else: not regularly
Drink Alcohol: NOT REGULARLY
Like rain: LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE
Like the beach: it has its perks
Believe in love at first sight: NO
Believe in true love: if its really true it can never be broken
Believe in heaven: no
Have any pets: soffee, zara, and matt

<--Are You-->
Scared of heights: yeah totally thats why i climb up 25 feet walls almost everyday without a rope
Afraid to die: more afraid of being afraid
Sad right now: more numb
Happy right now: i wish

<--Almost Done-->
What are you wearing: sweatshirt, shirt, boxers.
What's the last thing that you ate: chocolate
What's the last thing that you drank: arizona
Who's the last person you spoke to: my mum
When's the last time you said I love you: 5 minutes ago
Did you mean it: i more said it because i had to
If you could meet anyone alive or dead: MARSHAL MATHERS
Why: because he is one of the most amazing people i have ever heard of in my life
Can you hear yourself thinking: all the time
Time ended: 12:10am.... i'm a really fast quiz taker arent I??

Current Mood: depressed
+7
Monday, February 5th, 2007
2.5.07 @ 11:03 pm
gag
yaaay depression

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"fuk it , sorry imma go i feel like i have to puke or something"
poor kid


Current Mood: depressed
+3
Friday, February 2nd, 2007
2.2.07 @ 11:57 pm
PBC
being
grounded
fucking
sucks


Current Mood: depressed
+6
Saturday, January 27th, 2007
1.27.07 @ 12:35 am
sun, sun, sun, here it comes
ok
so
like
im fucking going crazy
with katy
we are laughing so hard
and dancing around
like idiots
and dressing eachother up in clothes
that are just
WRONG
but trust me its soooo FUNNY
like not even
hahahhahahahhaha
funny
more like
HAHHAHHAHHAHHAHHAAHHAH
funny
omgggg
funny funny funny
and then sam make herself into koala er
more like coyote
or racoon
pictures coming soon
they be scary
SCARRYYYY

heres a word from katy:
theresa cable
we're rying tofind
nd i think
that it is lost
FOREVERRRRRRR
shhh
everyones sleepping, dumass
is dmass
iwht a b
or not>
i never knw.
SOFFEE IS ADVERNTURUS

sorry claire
if you read this
i know you witll\
be very mad
at my typing
errrrrors.
ers
is better world

SAM
PAINTED HER EYES
AND HIS CHEEKS
AND HIS NOSE
black
AND THEN
SAM PAINTED HER LIPS RED
RED REDRED
AND HIS EYES
SHINY
LIKE MINE

i wish i could show you
but WE HAVE NO CABLE
fuck calbes
bcaes
CABLES
i spelled it right
damn
i hate mcas
macs
i cnat spell shit
on macs
apparently
i can spell shit.
duuuude
im like
soooo sorry
that this entry
is horrible.

WE LOVE ALL OF YOU


and since katy doesnt want to update her own lj
she wants to add here
that wine is much too sour
and beer is simply an unpleasant mouthful
and thanks sam
for giving her
wine
and
beer
even though sam did most of the drinking of the beer
which was almost none
YAY


Current Mood: bouncy
+1
Sunday, January 21st, 2007
1.21.07 @ 4:00 pm
FUCK FINALS


the end


Current Mood: stressed
+4
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