Below are the 20 most recent journal entries recorded in poor_unidentified_sam's LiveJournal:

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Tuesday, June 26th, 2007
6.26.07 @ 5:20 pm	BLOG. BLOG. BLOG. www.thelifeofSS.blogspot.com go look. go read. Current Mood: blah Current Music: bla
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Friday, June 22nd, 2007
6.22.07 @ 7:25 pm	Freshman Seminar - 100 A+ English - 99 A Math - 88 B+ Spanish - 90 A- P.E. - 96 A- Biology - 95 A I did really good. I'm proud of myself for: 1) Getting good grades 2) Finding like, 8 Twilight icons (GO LOOK RIGHT NOW!) 3) Going to go babysit durring summer =] Soffee says: dcjv Ff "DD "hjmjjnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnh c mjmjhhjdde8i
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Friday, June 1st, 2007
6.1.07 @ 10:04 pm	you know what i realized i really really hate livejournal. Like, really REALLY hate it. I don't know why. I'm pretty sure that i'm going to stop making posts. Maybe. I dont know. Ugh. Weekend. Friends. Projects. Writing. Goodbye. Current Mood: CRAZY Current Music: BONES
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Wednesday, May 30th, 2007
5.30.07 @ 5:38 pm	EVERYTHING YOU SAY TO ME TAKES ME ONE STEP CLOSER TO THE EDGE AND IM ABOUT TO BREAK I NEED A LITTLE ROOM TO BREATH CAUSE IM ONE STEP CLOSER TO THE EDGE AND IM ABOUT TO BREAK.
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Thursday, May 24th, 2007
5.24.07 @ 8:43 pm	horrible week horrible day horrible night everything is broken in one way or another and I really dont know if I can take one more day. Current Mood: depressed Current Music: bloop bloop
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Sunday, May 20th, 2007
5.20.07 @ 9:43 pm	today was really really fun. I cant wait till earth day. <3 Current Mood: content Current Music: velvet revolver
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Monday, May 14th, 2007
5.14.07 @ 9:12 pm	Hello. My name is Sam. I realized I really like my name. Sam. It just slides off the tongue. Kind of a girly tone. but also masculine. Sam. Its nice. I realized that I'm different. I realized what high school did to me this year. And what it has done for me. I changed this year. Maybe for the best, maybe not. But oh boy, did I change. I've done things that I regret. And you know how people say "Never have regrets, because you learn from your mistakes." Well, I don't agree with that. I do have regrets. One regret for sure. I was so stupid. So so stupid. And because of a few choices, it actually did change me. Changed my life. My entire life. I regret it. I don't know if any of you guys were in my state of mind way back when... but I was thinking about it today after testing. I was thinking about that feeling that ate me alive. That extreme depression that literally took over my entire life. I couldn't do anything. I was like a lifeless blob. I was. All my grades dropped I couldn't climb, anything. And just thinking about that feeling that feeling that was the only part of my life made me so sick like I wanted to vomit. I scared me so bad because when I was like that that depressed nothing could stop me not even myself. I shivered when I remembered today. And i felt like I had to start gasping for air. That feeling took me over and if it wasn't for the people that cared I don't know where I would be right now. Maybe back in therapy. Maybe home schooled. Maybe dead. And although this may seem like an entry where I'm saying "bla bla I hate the world" It's not. Because now I'm happy. Today I realized I am truely happy. I was giddy today, which was something that I haven't been in a very long time. I've changed. And I realized I don't have to be scared of being pulled back down into that dark place ever again because the people that I love and the people that love me wont let that happen. Current Music: Rage Against the Machene
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Saturday, May 12th, 2007
5.12.07 @ 2:32 am	You know what really annoys me? PEOPLE. THEY CAN BE SO FUCKING ANNOYING SOMETIMES. Like, ok. Everyone needs attention. Everyone has phases where they need more attention from people and stuff, but sometimes enough is enough. I had that too, and I'm totally going to admit that I was a total emo-bitch during that period. But after a while, you need to pull your lazy ass out of that mood, and GET OVER YOURSELF. After a long time, your friends try to make you feel better but theres nothing more that they can do. You need to be self sufficient. NOT hate yourself, NOT hate life, NOT hate the world. I just had to get that off of my mind, because right now i know soooooo many people that are too involved in their own little tiny life that they cannot notice anything else. (Again, admitting I used to be like this too, but the point is that i stopped.) Current Mood: accomplished Current Music: Hannah
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Monday, April 23rd, 2007
4.23.07 @ 8:05 pm	Pardon me.... but.... Current Mood: HAHAHAHAHAHAHA
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Tuesday, April 17th, 2007
4.17.07 @ 8:06 pm	worst week ever and its only tuesday woo! Current Mood: aggravated Current Music: jethro tull
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Thursday, April 12th, 2007
4.12.07 @ 10:06 pm	lalallalal jennys birthday is soon the killers concert was SO AMAZING they were amazing they played my song too i was actually like ready to cry it was so amazing but not really so intead i just screamed really really really loud and the funny thing is that it blended in with the hundreds of other screams so that i couldnt even hear my own well g2g watching marie antoniete now or however you spell it bye now Current Mood: full Current Music: movie
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Sunday, April 8th, 2007
4.8.07 @ 1:53 am	CT4L my parents think im asleep... haha dont you just love that. KILLERS CONCERT TOMORROW STAPELS CENTER ON THE FLOOR WITH LIZ "It's gonna be FUCKIN awesome." Oh yes. It will be. and so much more. Current Mood: excited Current Music: slow hands//interpol
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Tuesday, April 3rd, 2007
4.3.07 @ 10:42 pm	mmmm mmm MMMM SAM IS CLEANIN UP MONDAY = DISNEYLAND TUESDAY = KNOTT'S BERRY FARM WEDNESDAY = SEDUCTION (and jenny =D) THURSDAY = MONEY AND CLIMBING (best combo ever!) FRIDAY = PARTY how is THAT for a first week of spring break?? And how's this to start off the second week... MONDAY = KILLERS CONCERT AT THE STAPLES CENTER WITH LIZ =D Current Mood: PUMPED UP Current Music: Le Tigre
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Monday, February 26th, 2007
2.26.07 @ 8:37 pm	things are weird right now. I just feel bad about myself. You know those days where you just feel like shit? Like everyone is watching you, judging your every move? Everyone has them... Well, I’ve been having an increasing number of days like those lately. And they seem to be coming by the several. journal one... done... journal two... cant trust you... Current Mood: confused Current Music: queens of the stone age
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Saturday, February 17th, 2007
2.17.07 @ 12:36 am	so true, because (dont worry... its not you) :D Current Mood: tired Current Music: Red hot chili peppers
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Friday, February 9th, 2007
2.9.07 @ 8:59 pm	like natasha said... timewaster Time you started: 9:00pm <--About You--> Name: sam Birthday: may 10 Age: 14 Weight: way too much Height: 5'2.5'' Eye Color: ugly brown Hair Color: not sure... somewhere in between brown and blonde Race: alien Marital Status: single State of Residence: SO CAL School: saMO Occupation: babysitter Religion: buddhist Siblings: matt Ever been kissed: yea Ever cheated or been cheated on: nope Ever faked sick: DUH Kept a secret from everyone: hahah duhh Cried during a movie: the notebook Who do you go to for advice: advice? jenny <--In the Last Two Weeks Have You--> Cried: try year Been mean: yepp Been sarcastic: nooooooooooo Been angry: cant remember Talked to someone you have a crush on: ? Kissed someone: yea Hugged someone: duh Went to the beach at night: nope <--Favorites--> Color: black and yellow TV show: House MD, degrassi, BTB, CSI Drink: arizona Book: MR, Ellen hopkins stuff, gemma, too many Movie: not sure..... the illusionist? Food: again, how can i pick ONE Time of Day: 11:11 Time of Year: whenever it rains Restaurant: Violet Actor: JOHNNY DEPP <--Favorites in Music--> Band: led zepp Song when You're Happy: the sounds Song when You're Sad: everything else Song when Your Angry: jimmy eat world Song when You're Heart is Breaking: The Wings Song when You're Feeling Mellow: State radio, zero seven, tom petty Song to Dance to: SHAKE Romantic Song: ha... ha? Love Song: one shot two shot Song Lyrics: eminem Song to Put on Repeat: camilo Music Video: dani california <--Your Friends--> Best Friend: jenny n liz n NATALIE FUCKING MARIE COSOLA X-MEN MUTANT MAX FANG IGGY GAZZY NUDGE ANGEL FLAPPY BIRD LOVER Smartest Friend: wheere alll dhumb az rokes shorrry Friend you have the most fun with: all of them <3 Happiest: liz <3333 Be the first to get married: katy Funniest: theyre alll SO FUCKING HILLARIOUS Dependable: again, i wouldnt have a friend that wasnt dependable Most like you: they all secretly hate me <--Movies - Like/Dislike--> Girl Interrupted: huh? The Dark Crystal: HUH ? <--Scary/Horror Movie - Like/Dislike-> The Ring: AHH AHH SCARY SCARY GO AWAY NO NO NO Stephen King's It: o_o The Blair Witch Project: OOOH that was a good one Halloween: havent seen it yet Friday the 13th: havent seen it yes Children of the Corn: HHAHAHHAHHA THIS MOVIE WAS A JOKE The Silence of the Lambs: O_O CANABALISM = BAAD Jaws: ok. my mom thought up the SUPER SMART IDEA to show this movie to me when i was SEVEN YEARS OLD. I HAD NIGHTMARES FOR TWO MONTHS. Poltergeist: huh? The Birds: freakkkky but well done Signs: omfgggg i was flipping out the entire time i watched it. The Sixth Sense: scary rfwekrsarjakbntjkwebghjerbghj Thirteen Ghosts: never saw it <--Do You--> Smoke Cigarettes: not regularly Smoke anything else: not regularly Drink Alcohol: NOT REGULARLY Like rain: LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE Like the beach: it has its perks Believe in love at first sight: NO Believe in true love: if its really true it can never be broken Believe in heaven: no Have any pets: soffee, zara, and matt <--Are You--> Scared of heights: yeah totally thats why i climb up 25 feet walls almost everyday without a rope Afraid to die: more afraid of being afraid Sad right now: more numb Happy right now: i wish <--Almost Done--> What are you wearing: sweatshirt, shirt, boxers. What's the last thing that you ate: chocolate What's the last thing that you drank: arizona Who's the last person you spoke to: my mum When's the last time you said I love you: 5 minutes ago Did you mean it: i more said it because i had to If you could meet anyone alive or dead: MARSHAL MATHERS Why: because he is one of the most amazing people i have ever heard of in my life Can you hear yourself thinking: all the time Time ended: 12:10am.... i'm a really fast quiz taker arent I?? Current Mood: depressed Current Music: buzz buzz
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Monday, February 5th, 2007
2.5.07 @ 11:03 pm	gag yaaay depression "fuk it , sorry imma go i feel like i have to puke or something" poor kid Current Mood: depressed Current Music: dingaling
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Friday, February 2nd, 2007
2.2.07 @ 11:57 pm	PBC being grounded fucking sucks Current Mood: depressed Current Music: The White Stripes
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Saturday, January 27th, 2007
1.27.07 @ 12:35 am	sun, sun, sun, here it comes ok so like im fucking going crazy with katy we are laughing so hard and dancing around like idiots and dressing eachother up in clothes that are just WRONG but trust me its soooo FUNNY like not even hahahhahahahhaha funny more like HAHHAHHAHHAHHAHHAAHHAH funny omgggg funny funny funny and then sam make herself into koala er more like coyote or racoon pictures coming soon they be scary SCARRYYYY heres a word from katy: theresa cable we're rying tofind nd i think that it is lost FOREVERRRRRRR shhh everyones sleepping, dumass is dmass iwht a b or not> i never knw. SOFFEE IS ADVERNTURUS sorry claire if you read this i know you witll\ be very mad at my typing errrrrors. ers is better world SAM PAINTED HER EYES AND HIS CHEEKS AND HIS NOSE black AND THEN SAM PAINTED HER LIPS RED RED REDRED AND HIS EYES SHINY LIKE MINE i wish i could show you but WE HAVE NO CABLE fuck calbes bcaes CABLES i spelled it right damn i hate mcas macs i cnat spell shit on macs apparently i can spell shit. duuuude im like soooo sorry that this entry is horrible. WE LOVE ALL OF YOU and since katy doesnt want to update her own lj she wants to add here that wine is much too sour and beer is simply an unpleasant mouthful and thanks sam for giving her wine and beer even though sam did most of the drinking of the beer which was almost none YAY Current Mood: bouncy Current Music: shuffllflfllflfle
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Sunday, January 21st, 2007
1.21.07 @ 4:00 pm	FUCK FINALS the end Current Mood: stressed Current Music: sexyback
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